So much to say......

ok, to be honest, I don't know who reads this. Sometimes I just feel like I need to get it out of my head.
I have had several doctor visits lately. Went for my yearly, which I had not done for 4 years. I know, I know! I found a great doctor, on a friends reccomendation. I have never had such a good doctor. She sat and talked with me for an hour and a half, got me on some depression meds and set up some tests. I have felt so much better on my meds, happier and more patient. Went in for an ultra sound, no not pregnant, but I have 3 fibroids the size of kiwis in my uterus. This would account for all the pain I am in, that I thought was just normal woman pain. So I go in and sit with the doctor again to discuss options. Options??? why do I have options??? I have options because obviously that pain I go through is not normal. I had 3 or 4 options......from birth control pill, IUD....to a Hysterectomy. I left my appointment that day feeling a bit numb and overwhelmed. Then as if she just knew I needed to talk to her, my mom called on the drive home. I pulled over and told her what was happening, and cried. After telling my mom everything, she calmly told me what I knew and just needed to hear. Get the hysterectomy, that way the problem will be taken care of, cause all the other options will just prolong the real problem. So, I talk to my hubby, and we decide together that that would be the best option. So now, the pain that I have been feeling for years, has been revealed. Now when I have pains I just want it to be gone cause I know it is not normal. Do I have more pain now cause I am more aware of what is causing it? Is it psychological, my mind telling me to be in pain? Or do I just really hurt this much all the time?
My surgery is scheduled for mid January, and although I don't want to wait that long, it is the best way financially and with my deductible. I have to make it through Christmas and the bridal show before that. I can do it. I will be out for 2 weeks, and it will only be day surgery. Mom will come take care of me for a bit.
So, there it is. I wonder what it will be like to not have a period ever again, well that will be nice!! I honestly never thought I would have to deal with this. It has been a big decision for me, but I know I need to feel better and be happy, and if this can help then I need to do it.

Fall!!

Ahhh, I can smell it in the air. I love Fall. I come alive with the change of the colors. I get in the cleaning mode and tear everything apart! I love to light the candles and enjoy my family, cozy and warm. Today, I talked my husband into tearing into the horrible computer/craft room. If you have ever been to my house, you know that this room is always the closed off room and doesn't get attention on a house tour. I organized, hubby moved furniture and we threw stuff away! It feels so good to sit here at my computer and know that everything is in place.

Fall Ball has started. We went to practice today, had a great time sitting with my friend Julie, watching the boys and chatting. It was nice to be out enjoying some time in the sun.

School starts on Wednesday for Kyle. Not sure if he is thrilled about it, but it sure will be nice to get back into a routine. I think he is more excited to see his friends and see the classes he got. I hope he has a great year, full of great progress and more good friendships!

Mark and I are doing good. Work for me is slowing down a bit, which is nice for me, but hard on the paycheck. We will be fine, we always seem to make it all work. Mark has a business trip soon and not looking forward to him being gone. I have to be strong, and I dont' do that too well!!

Back to school....can't you just smell the scotch tape, elmers glue....I need to arrange a bouquet of freshly sharpened pencils!!!!

Too much Chocolate???

Is it possible? that is the question.......After my Monday at the Washington County Fair, I would have to say, Yes, it is possible to have Too Much Chocolate. It all started a few weeks ago with a phone call at the bakery asking if I wanted to judge the baked goods at the County Fair. I have always been interested in getting involved in this, so I said yes. Not only would it be fun, it would get me involved in the community, and I would also get paid. I can always use some extra money, and that was just the icing on the cake so to speak!!! My manager decided to join me in judging so we would be partners in crime!!!

We started at 8:00 am. Breads were first, there were some good and of course some bad. We then moved onto muffins, quick breads, cookies-every type of cookie you could imagine, candy, pies and cakes. By the time we were done tasting and awarding blue ribbons, we were sick. Thinking we were done, all of a sudden we hear that we can move on to the Juniors now. It started all again, tasting everything in every catagory that I just tried only in the Junior division now! Oh my. Could I do it? We got the last catagory judged by 2:00 and wobbled out the door to the car.

I have to say that I was surprised how many people entered their goods in the fair. It was nice to see such a good turnout, and although I am burnt out on baked goods, there was some pretty decent baked items there, several of which I wanted the recipe for.

Next day at work, I don't even want to look at a cookie, or a donut or a cake, or a piece of bread. This may be a good thing for me and my diet!!!!...until next year!!!

Sunday

Usually Sunday is one of my favorite days. I work on Saturdays so Sunday is my first day of my weekend. I get up before anyone else in the house and I can have a few moments to myself. Coffee is a must, and I get time to catch up on reading blogs. Reading other blogs got me to thinking, maybe I could do a blog???? Why not?? So here I am. I may not post everyday, but I will be here, telling a story, sharing a secret, sharing a recipe or craft, or just blabbing!!!

Today, I am delivering a wedding cake. I decorate wedding cakes at a local bakery, and although I don't really care to deliver them, I sometimes I have to step in. My hubby and my son will go with me to deliver, and then we are going to head over to Bridgeport Village to wander around the shops. A friend of mine has a fantastic flower shop called "Wallflower" that he just opened and I have been promising that I would stop by and check it out, so today that will finally happen. I am excited to go and be with my boys!

Enjoy the day!